Growing Up is Hard tO DO.

Remember when we were little and we wanted nothing more than to grow up and have our own houses and be able to make our own decisions. When it would be up to us what we did with our day. Well that day has finally arrived for Alex and I. We're now the big 2-0 and let me tell you it definitely different than what I thought it would be. Don't get me wrong I love my increasing independence but some time being a grown up is no fun. I think it just hit me that things wont be like they were forever and now I'm starting to grasp that concept. Alex is leaving for New Zealand for a month this summer and spring semester Ill be studying abroad. We wont have our carefree summer anymore and we when I study abroad it will be the first time in more than 10 years that I wont be seeing my best friends for 5 months. Thats a lot to take on and a lot to digest. There are some great things about growing up- making our own rules, creating our own path that make me increasingly excited to get college over with. But there are also some things, that I don't want to change, that are going to be really hard for me to deal with.

But good thing I have amazing friends and family to help me through!

Girls' Code vs. Guys Barely Even Have a Code

So. I've been noticing something lately. More than once recently it has been brought to my attention one way or another that some guys weren't all too concerned with breaking what is a cardinal "rule of feminism" as Karen stated in Mean Girls: never EVER date a friend's ex.

Sounds simple enough right? I don't know about the rest of the world, but my group of friends interprets this as inclusive of several levels of relationships your friend may have had with a guy, or girl for that matter. If they were serious boyfriend/girlfriend, hooked up, made out, dated casually, liked, talked to or had a baby crush on, it counts. That means you're not even allowed to think about that person if you want to consider yourself a good friend. Chicks before...well, you know. People always say that eventually, if it's been like a hundred years since your friend thought about that person or if they give you their blessing, then it's ok. Don't kid yourself. They'll probably never like you as much after that, and if you gradually get less texts from them, don't be surprised. It's not cool.

I wish it wasn't this way, but it is. I don't know why we're so territorial. Even though we've moved on, we still like to have the memories to ourselves. We shouldn't have to share them with the people we trust the most. It's such an invasion. ughgh I just shudder at the thought of Sami making out with my 1st grade crush, Christopher.

Ok, but guys are not the same. A male friend of mine actually told me recently that guys basically only count actual ex-girlfriends. It doesn't matter if his best boy really liked the girl or tried to get her for like 3 years straight and failed. Personally, I know that some guys aren't even really concerned if it's their friend's actual ex. They just think differently than we do! It's scary! They're vicious creatures!

Sami and I have broken the code. Yes. And we survived. Mostly because Sami is incredibly forgiving and open-minded, and my side of it didn't last very long. I would feel eternally indebted to her if it weren't for the fact that she took him back. I would say that she's the one that really deserved him, but I wouldn't wish that *&%%!^#$@&#&@^$!&!*$*^#^@^#%&@$&@&$*@*#^**^ on anybody. He's a bad guy. Ehem.

Anyway, if you're a girl, just don't do it. Don't do it. Unless your friend totally forgot about the guy (like the one who told you that he liked you in like 7th grade and then you convinced yourself to like him and then next week he apparently liked somebody else), you're better safe than sorry.

Speidi Splits = Spencer and Heidi

Soooo who heard that Heidi filed for separation from her current husby Spencer Pratt? Well. She did. And IT'S ABOUT FREAKIN' TIME!! hellooooo.

Who's been watching The Hills this season? I mean, they are officially crazy, and it's so sad because Heidi used to be so normal and cute. Now she's lost it, and we all know whose fault it is.

It's really sad actually how much power guys have over girls sometimes. And the other way around sometimes too I guess. I mean, it's clear that she was brainwashed. Before she was a down-to-earth, cute, family-oriented girl. Now she's a plastic, crystal freak. Ok. I'm sorry. I shouldn't call her that, but we all want the best for her. I'm still praying that she'll come back to earth. I'm on your side, Heidi! And it looks like so far she's taken at least one step in the right direction. Yayyyy!